NO FACEBOOK for 40 DAYS!!!

Hello friends. As many know, this week has begun the season of Lent. Many Christians across the globe celebrate Lent by giving up something for the 40 days between Ash Wednesday and Easter Sunday. Most years I choose something fairly tradition like, candy or pop. But this year I decided I needed to give up something that was going to be extremely hard to do. That thing?? Facebook. It consumed my life in between the cracks of working on homework or just being bored. Well, not anymore! I have cut myself off from the world of Facebook and so far it has felt great! Although, today is the first day...so we'll see. I have asked my friends here at Hope and my family members to keep me accountable and they were all extremely supportive of taking on such a large feat! Which to be honest with you, is soo incredibly sad! Facebook should not be that important so this year I am re-grouping and re-thinking my life and where I choose to invest my time. For all the time spent on Facebook I am giving 5 minutes of my night, right before bed, some quiet time to myself. This time is time for me to think and pray and listen. I appreciate all the support that you all have and will give to me in every area. I will need the support definitely. I'm like an addict. Sooo sad. These will be my only posts to Facebook until further notice. I don't include this as cheating since I do not actually get on Facebook to upload the blog. If you guys wish to stay in contact with me PLEASE feel free to email me or skype me. My email is kendra.gernaat@hope.edu. As an old childhood character would say, "TTFN! Ta-Ta for now!" God bless you all!


Grace & Peace,
B.

Dreaming with an OPEN heart...

Wow. Life. How crazy it is, huh? You know the saying, you should always take the time to stop and smell the roses? Well, I wish I could do that. Except for the fact that this is Holland. Roses here are called TULIPS . But, life has been so crazy lately it feels like it's flying by me and I'm just a bystander in my own life. I stand there, watching flashes of images fly by my face and wave as they go by. We are already halfway through this semester and I keep questioning, where the heck did it go? Have I really been at Hope for almost two years already? The scariest part is realizing that I'm almost halfway through my college career. I cannot imagine leaving Hope already. I talked to my cousin today who is a senior here and he is busy trying to figure out and plan the rest of his life with internships and jobs after he graduates. Stressful, to say the least. We all get so wrapped with trying to accomplish everything we want to do and squeeze in as much stuff in the day as possible and we, well at least I, have a hard time remembering that these are the years for LIVING. This is the time to love life, enjoy company, and go to bed when the sun is rising! Life is so short and I am learning that very quickly as I'm realizing how fast time has gone already. I really have always enjoyed the saying, Live Well, Laugh Often, Love Much. We were put here for a greater purpose and we have to live our lives so we can say at the end that we lived well, we lived happily, and we lived fully. We have to enjoy all of the little moments and laugh as much as possible. We need to forgive others and remember to always forgive ourselves and to love everyone with an OPEN heart. We have to learn to be open to loving even those who may hurt us or let us down. I know how hard it is to open up your heart. I always tend to put walls up scared that I may get hurt. I have continued to be in awe of life. Every time I open my heart a little more, the more love I feel. I love my friends and family so incredibly much and I am so blessed. My brother this week just got engaged! Can you believe it?! I knew it was coming but still about cried when I heard. I am sooo incredibly happy for him and his fiancée. Whoa, weird. I said fiancée. She is so perfect for him that I honestly could not have been more excited to hear it become official. My brother had a huge crush on this girl in high school but they never dated. She graduated and went to school and they hadn't talked in a few years. About a year and a half ago they reconnected and started hanging out. One thing led to another...and now here we are. Getting hitched. They have only been engaged for a week and it is honestly all I can think about. This may be the best wedding I will ever go to. Weddings remind me that I want to surround myself with people that truly love me. I want people that really cherish me and still want to keep me with all of my flaws and imperfections and silly anecdotes. I plan to live with an open heart from now on. Even when it gets hard and I am scared, I am going to remember my brother is getting married and he found that one person and I am going to remember how happy he is. So here it is....Go out and love, REALLY love. Find people that remember your favorite color, that tell you the truth, that stand by you, that tell you that you are beautiful inside and out, that keep your secrets, that LOVE you no matter what. Find those people.


Grace & Peace,
B.


This is from a Youtube video that a friend sent me.


I dreamed I had an interview with God.
"So you would like to interview me?" God asked. 
"If you have the time." I said.
"My time is eternity. What questions do you have in mind for me?"
"What surprises you most about humankind?"
God answered, "That they get bored with childhood. They rush to grow up and then long to be children again. That they lose their health to make money and then lose their money to restore their health. That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live in neither the present nor the future. That they live as if they will never die, and die as if they had never lived."
God's hand took mine and we were silent for awhile. 
I asked, "As a parent, what are some of life's lessons you want your children to learn?"
God replied with a smile. "To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others. To learn they cannot make anyone love them. What they can do is let themselves be loved. To learn that a rich person is not one who has the most, but is one who needs the least. To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in persons we love, and it takes many years to heal them. To learn to forgive others by practicing forgiveness. To learn that there are persons who love them dearly, but simply do not know how to express or show their feelings. To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it differently. To learn that it is not always enough that they be forgiven by others, but that they must forgive themselves."
"Thank you for your time," I said humbly. "Is there anything else you would like your children to know?"
"To learn that I am here. Always."

Reaching the Unreachable...

Wow! What a week! We currently had our mid-Winter break here at Hope and boy was it sure nice to be home for awhile. The week before break I was asked to become a part of Residential Life here at Hope in a matter of days! It was crazy to me to think, "Me?! An RA?!" After I found out that they were considering me I did a LOT of praying. I had so much to think about and not very long to answer. I prayed long and hard and finally decided that this would be a wonderful opportunity to get to know more girls and also I would be getting paid, which is a HUGE bonus. I met with the Resident Director and we made plans for me to move in to my new room the following week which happened to be this past week. So here I am now. Sitting on my single, double-mattress, extremely high bed that I have to climb a desk to get on, soaking in what it means now that I am an official RA. I have to say, I am loving it so far. I think my biggest fear of moving clusters was leaving my roomie and my cluster girls. I prayed a lot this past summer that Maddie, my roommate, and I would get a cluster that was a lot of fun, loved God, and respected the boundaries and let me just say God went above and beyond when He answered that prayer. Even though I had fears, I still trusted that I would get to know these new girls and would learn to love them just as I love my old cluster. So this past Tuesday, I gathered my belongings,  and headed on down the hallway to experience a new adventure. What I've learned so far? These girls are so sweet, funny, hard-working and driven. I cannot wait to see what He has in store for me and the girls the rest of the semester. I think that this was the hardest part...not knowing. I had no idea what these girls were going to be like, how they would like me, IF they would like me, and how much they would need me. I think I've really began to understand God's love through this whole experience. I was nervous and scared and I needed the acknowledgement that this was the right step to take but for a second I thought that He was unreachable. I am humbled by the fact that we have NO IDEA how deep His love for us really is. It is "vast and beyond all measure" to quote from a song. The love He has for me is what helps me know that I am making the right decisions. Sometimes I hesitate and wonder, is God really there? And then I look outside my window at the rain and remember that how could all of this that is created just go BOOM! one day and that's that. I personally love rain. Some may say it is depressing but my favorite, when I was younger, was going out and jumping on the trampoline while it was pouring rain on a warm summer's day. As I got older my favorite place to be became my front porch. I loved to sit out there while it rained after a long day of helping out my parents around the house and just rock on the swing. I could feel God there, I felt as though I could reach him there. I would sit and just listen. Sometimes my family would come out and we would sit and listen together or we would laugh about the day's events or the crazy thing my brother built that day. The thing about rain is that I believe it is God's way of cleaning the world. It makes people tend to stay inside with their families or go to the movies with someone you love cause you haven't seen one or been out in ages. It creates time when everything seems to slow down and be not quite as hectic. Some days I find it especially hard to reach God. Maybe with a new room, new cluster and new people this semester I will find time to sit alone in my room and reach for God. I cannot even begin to describe to you the business of my week and I know many of you are the exact same way. Find a time in your crazy lives to sit and enjoy the rain or go run in it! Enjoy the beautiful weather and the wonderful gift that God has given to you.

Grace & Peace
B.

The complexity of things...

This past Thursday I had the chance to drive up to Grand Rapids and hang out with my sister and her best friend, who was visiting from Charlotte, North Carolina. I've been really looking forward to her visiting for two reasons. First, I have not seen her in so long and she is wonderful and secondly, we have been planning on going to the Grand Rapids Museum to see their new exhibit "Bodies Revealed." Wanting to be in the health care field, you would understand my excitement. We began our journey, touring through downtown Grand Rapids in the 1800's then upstairs to the Grand Rapids Furniture Company, meandering through different military firearms on the wall, and other interesting historical pieces of Grand Rapids. As we went through we posed for different pictures and laughed as walked through. Finally, we came to the newest attraction, "Bodies Revealed." We hand the lady our tickets and she informs us that there is no photography, no gum and anything else that might interfere with the safety of the exhibit. After we get the whole "spiel" we head into the exhibit. There are tv screens on the walls that give you an informative background about the exhibit and the purpose of the exhibit. As we are walking through the exhibit, we continue to be amazed at the mere complexity of the human body. My sister's friend turns to us and says, "Even after seeing and experiencing all of this, I do not understand how people do not believe that there is a God." The TV screens even told us at the beginning that there was so much we still did not know about the human body and that certain aspects could not be explained. Being in Health Care it is important for me to remember everything that I learn in my classes here at Hope, but it is also important to remember that not everything can be explained through science. My research methods prof, who is a paid scientist, understands that you cannot research something that is immeasurable. We cannot prove that there is no God or that there is no Heaven or Hell because these things are far more than we are. We cannot begin to understand the complexities in this universe without knowing that there is a God. There are 204 bones in the body, over 600 muscles (depending on the person), and about 20 of those muscles are used to smile. Can we really believe that it all just went "BOOM!" one day? Sure, sometimes miracles happen because of great medical care, a surgeon that saved a life. But, who gave him the talents, skills, and knowledge to save that life. A deep drive had to have been placed in that human being for a purpose. What about the firefighters and police officers and emergency workers that work around the clock to ensure our safety? Firefighters carry over fifty pounds of gear, not to mention running up and down stairs, prying entrances open, and carrying people. Who built firefighters to be able to handle that kind of endurance? Every person is built differently, each person thinks differently, every single person is unique. As humans, our mastery is to make things in mass. We make lots of the same kinds of clothes, we eat the same kinds of foods, we drive lots of similar cars, we build similar structures. God doesn't work like that. He molds and sculpts and paints each person like a canvas. No matter how many times he uses similar colors, he can never stroke in the exact same spot and in the exact same way, making each masterpiece unique. In my Cultural Heritage class we have been reading works from Ancient Greek philosophers. I came across this quote by Socrates, "True wisdom comes to each of us when we realize how little we understand about life, ourselves, and the world around us." I encourage each of you to go out this week, and look at the world around you, do not try to understand the complexities of life, simply bask in the pure joy that it was created for you.




Grace & Peace,
B.

Well beyond my years...

I have recently realized how fast my life is really going. Coming into a new year creates new possibilities, new adventures, and new landmarks within my life. I have realized that these years are precious and with each day the future becomes reality. I think the older I get, the more I think about the future and what God has planned for me. I talk often with friends about our plans for the future. Kids? How many? Marriage? To whom? Career? What? Where do I wanna live? What friends are gonna be in my life when I get to these points? What do I really want to accomplish in my life? So many questions that are discussed but mainly left unanswered. I am almost 20 years old which means my future is right around the corner. I was talking with a friend of mine last night about our lives and how fast these years at Hope College have been already. We can hardly believe that in a few short months we will be Juniors! For us, it is crazy to think because we remember, like it was yesterday, walking through those open doors into a dorm that we would live in for the next year without our parents for the first time. I am constantly reminded how much change happens in my life. I am currently in a brand-spanking new semester with new classes, new faces and new experiences. I am waiting for the time to come shortly when one of my best friend's leaves for Spain for 3 months and my brother leaves for Texas for the Air Force. All of this happening in the same weekend! You can expect a sappy mess out of me that week for sure. Constantly changing, constantly moving. That's life, right? Or like the French say, "C'est la vie!" This semester is definitely going to be a challenge for me both physically and emotionally. I plan on relying on God's strength to get me through it all. With all of the business of my life and the constant worry about the future, I forget that all I have to do is give it to God. Let Him fill me and consume my life. He knows the path he has for me and I will choose to follow him even when the going gets rough, and for sure it will. My prayer for you all is that you choose to give it God when worry and doubt seem to be all-consuming. Change is destined to happen and with God, we can get through it together.

Grace & Peace,
B.

"But I've learned the hard way that change is one of God's greatest gifts and one of his most useful tools. I've learned the hard way that change can push us, pull us, rebuke and remake us. It can show us who we've become, in the worst ways, and also in the best ways. I've learned that it's not something to run away from, as though we could, and I've learned that in many cases, change is not a function of life's cruelty but instead a function of God's graciousness...If you dig in and fight the changes, they will smash you to bits. They'll hold you under, drag you across the rough sand, scare and confuse you. But if you can find it within yourself, in the wildest of seasons, just for a moment, to trust in the goodness of God, who made it all and holds it all together, you'll find yourself drawn along to a whole new place, and there's truly nothing sweeter. Unclench your fists, unlock your knees and also the door to your heart, take a deep breath, and begin to swim. begin to let the waves do their work in you." 


Bittersweet by Shauna Niequist

A Race to the Finish

I've made it! This is my last week of classes of fall semester and I cannot be happier to go home. Finals are just around the corner and the weight of stress continues to press upon me. Last night, as I was reading my devotional I was reminded of something I continue to forget daily when it comes to stress and everything else I have to do, that God is in control. I have to remember that I should not worry about where this life takes me. It is a journey, one that could lead to unexplainable destinations, blissful moments and unchartered waters. I think with the end approaching it leads me one step closer to graduating, which, I must say, scares me a little bit. Wasn't I just accepted to Hope College? At least that's what it feels like. I wonder where my life is going constantly. Will I be a physician's assistant? Or does God have other plans for me? Will I travel the world or will I stay in Michigan? Will I find a boy that loves me completely or will I be alone? Will I have children? Will I be happy with the decisions that I made? Will I make it through the struggles I come across? So many questions I have. But last night I was reminded that God has a purpose and a plan for me and He knows exactly what He is doing. I struggle with this fact. I'm faulty and no one knows better than me that I love to be in control. I am a pilot not a copilot. This week I've also been reminded of how fast the time goes. Since when am I halfway done with my sophomore year of college? I constantly become bombarded with so many things on my to-do list that I forget to just sit and relax and have a laugh with my best friends. I forget how wonderful it is to take a half hour and skype my best friends from back home and share laughs of the past weeks without each other. I forget how wise and caring my parents are when I come across struggles that only they will understand. I forget how much I miss my brother now and how I can't even bare the thought of him leaving so soon. So many things pile up on top of the most important aspects of my life, including my time with God. I forget or am too tired to do my devotions some nights. I sometimes am so stressed out that I don't want to go to our Gathering service on Sunday nights because it is ample homework time. And sometimes I forget how truly lucky I am to be blessed with so many beautiful people in my life. Coming up on Christmas time, I remember just that. I am lucky and blessed. Holidays are about spending time with your families and friends who love you. And I can't wait to spend another Christmas surrounded by love and support. So this week I'm finishing the race of this semester and as of Tuesday, I'm going home to de-stress and love on all of the people in my life that mean the most to me. I suggest that you do the same. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to you all! and God Bless!

Love,

B.

Giving Thanks

This week is Thanksgiving! Can you believe it? I hardly can. I have always loved this holiday for so many reasons. I think I have come to appreciate it even more being in college. I do not get to go home as often so when I see my family I am that much more thankful and blessed for what a wonderful, loving family that God has given me. My roommate for the past few days and weeks has said "Ugh, I hate that everyone just seems to skip right over Thanksgiving, it is not Christmas yet, people!" At the time, I thought she was just being Scrooge, but as I walked downtown Holland, Michigan last weekend every shop had Christmas plastered all over the windows. I decided that my roommate was right, people tend to skip right over Thanksgiving and get right into Christmas. I am guilty of this myself, my family puts the Christmas tree up the day after Thanksgiving, the lights on the house and all of our Christmas dishes are put into the cupboards. I go Black Friday shopping for my Christmas gifts just like everyone else, but I can't help but wonder, do I appreciate Thanksgiving enough? Thanksgiving is one of my favorite days. I wake up to a house that smells of turkey roasting outside, stuffing being baked in the oven, pumpkin pie and other desserts cooling on the hutch in the kitchen. I wake up early so that I can get into the shower before my brother and get dressed to head to church. When we get back from church, I usually help my mom out in the kitchen for a bit, then the family comes over. We laugh and talk, watch the football game, play outside with my niece and nephew in the leaves and on the four-wheelers. It is a day dedicated to my family. On that day I think of nothing else but the love we have for one another and relationships that we have. On Thanksgiving it is so easy to remember why I give thanks. But, as soon as Friday comes, Christmas is pounded into my head, I think of nothing else but "oh shoot, what did Matt say he wanted for Christmas?" and "oh man, my mom would love this!" I cannot help but think this is the mentality of most of us. We only appreciate the day on that day. The other 364 days are spent thinking and doing other things. Well, here's my challenge for you and myself, go out and tell every person you know how much you care for and appreciate them, not only on Thanksgiving but every day of the year. Have a great Thanksgiving guys and God bless!


Love,
B.



p.s. If Thanksgiving has become a stressor for you, as in you cannot stand the idea of being around your family for a whole day, think about all of the blessings that have been bestowed upon your life, friends, coworkers, and maybe even a stranger that helped you one time. If you are reading this, I thank God for you because I know that you are a blessing in someone's life even if you do not think so.