Oh me oh my...

Happy 25th of January!! It's not really an important day exactly but I felt the need to celebrate it just because it is another day of living. That should be celebrated, right? I think so. Yesterday I got the opportunity to Skype with my brother and his wife in North Carolina. It just made me realize how much I miss those two terribly. The Skype date was literally us laughing the entire time about different things that have happened. I miss my confidant. Matt always has been a good listener even if he doesn't say anything, he let's me vent and I love him for it. Sometimes it is hard to connect with them and keep in touch as often as I like but I'm so thankful that I have been blessed with a brother and sister-in-law who are awesome beyond words.

I am officially enrolled in a CNA (Certified Nursing Assistant) training program in Allegan from January 30-March 30!! I have orientation on Friday and I am super excited and somewhat nervous. I know that this is going to be a great experience but I also know my time will be very limited. I go 8:30am-7:30pm everyday. I am excited to learn the trade, gain the experience, and meet lots of people in the healthcare field. When I went to take my pre-assessment in order to get into the program last week, our instructor informed us that for the last week of the class we have 8-hour clinicals everyday... I thought to myself, "this is not good, I a full time student!". But once again, God comes through and it turns out I am actually on Spring Break that week! Crazy, right?! Yeah, I thought so too. I was planning a trip to North Carolina for Spring Break so I was pretty disappointed that this will not happen until May but rest assured IT WILL HAPPEN. And hey, by May North Carolina will be hot and it will be beach season! That puts a HUGE smile on my face because I am ALL about beachin it. Needless to say, this semester will be a whirlwind but a necessary and memorable one. Now all I have to do is get my butt in gear with schoolwork and I'll be all set!... hopefully the motivation comes soon... I am definitely the type of person that is much more productive when I am busy so hopefully this CNA thing kicks me into high gear and I can get stuff done. Wish me luck!

Peace & Love,
B.

A little inspirational quote I came across this morning on Pinterest...

"I'm not telling you it is going to be easy--I'm telling you it is going to be WORTH it."
~Art Williams

Bring it on 2012...

For those of you who know me, you'll know that 2011 was one of the most difficult years thus far. Despite the difficulties that came, I have so many things to celebrate that have brought me to where I am this year. I have the best friends anyone could ask for. Road trips to the beach, long chats on the deck on a summer night, hot tub excursions, random dance parties in the living room, getting primped for nights out, shopping dates, coffee dates, Verbeek fire drills, 5K's with my dad, driving my brother to the church on his wedding day, and so so so many other things have defined 2011. It's been a rough by great year and I honestly cannot wait to see what 2012 has in store. I'll be a senior in 2012, my niece is turning 5, my brother will be coming home, I'll be starting work in the medical field, and who knows what else! New years brings new opportunities, new beginnings, and new experiences. So, bring it on 2012...bring it on.

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S!!
B.

Tis the Season...

Well folks, it's that time of year again. The time of cheer, laughter, family, friends, no school, hot-tubbing, sledding, and Christmas. The time of year when we bundle up with our snow gear, go skiing, get rosy cheeks, come down with colds, and sit by the fireplace, at least for those of us who live in Michigan. In my house, we usually set up the tree and hang the lights on the house right about now, we finish finding Christmas presents and begin wrapping or hiding them in the depths of our house. I unfortunately have not had the luxury of finishing my Christmas shopping due to classes, homework and exams but I did get home to see my house covered in lights. I live out in the country on a small 20 acre farm. My house is an old yellow farmhouse with a green roof and a big red barn behind it. As I drive up the road to my house, I see the house all lit up on top of the hill where my house sits. We always have white lights surrounding our roof line with green garland wrapping around our porch with big red bows. There is two reindeer in the front yard made of lights facing the road. I pull in the driveway to gaze at the beauty of this old farmhouse. Unfortunately we have not had much snowfall yet this year and there was not a speck of white to be seen yet but it was still so pretty. I walk up the front steps to my house across the flagstones embedded with grass in between dreaming of the looks of this place when it finally snows. I open the front door to the smell of gingerbread wafting in the air. I walk in and see my 4 year old niece dancing and singing "Up on the Housetop, reindeer paws...", she turns to face me and screams high pitch for about what seems like a minute straight. My sister, Dad and I begin laughing at the excitement on her face. She runs to me and asks, "Are you home for good?", these are the moments I live for, the reason I love this time of year; family. I miss so much of their school programs and growing up days while I am here studying my life away, but it is so good to know that when I come home the welcome back is the best feeling in the entire world.

Today in chapel, our chaplain presented a challenge to us for this Christmas and Advent season. Did you know that the United States spends $450 billion on Christmas gifts every year. That is a LOT of money. Did you know that it will only take $20 billion to solve the world's clean water problem? If everyone in the world bought ONE less gift this year we could solve world thirst. This is the time of year that is not only for our immediate families but it is a time to give to our global community as well. Watch this video. It changes lives, literally. As a poor college student, the past few years I have slowly gone back to homemade gifts for my family and friends like I used to make as a child. Homemade gifts mean more, inspire people to do the same, and show love more than any store bought gift could. I encourage each and every one of you to remember what is truly important in this holiday season, family. Our own families and our global family, coming together to celebrate a time of year that evokes joy in the hearts of so many, more than at any other time of year. Think about it. Change a life today.

Blessings,
B.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9IN0W3gjnNE

Watch this video and inspire other hearts to do the same.

Turning the page...

            So this past weekend my brother got married!! He married a girl that he has been in love with since high school and I am so incredibly happy for the two of them. They are moving into a new chapter in life. They will be rigorously packing and getting ready to head south this weekend. I feel as though he just got home! I honestly wish that they could stay longer but as my mom says, "they are ready to start their life together, ya know?". And I do know, but a part of me is selfish and wants to keep him here. At the wedding, I knew that there was a small possibility I might tear up a little bit at the ceremony. I did not realize, however, that at the end of the "I do's" my brother would look over at me and smile and I would start crying like a freak! We have grown so close the last few years that we know each other's insides and outs. When he looked at me, I could just tell he was SO happy. And after the last few years that have been the hardest for our family, I was crying out of pure joy for him because he finally knows where he belongs and knows who he wants to spend the rest of his life with. I am blessed to have a brother as cool, as funny and as great as he is. The wedding was the first time in a long while that I have been able to hang out, goof around and dance with him. He adds so much joy to life and he has a smile that kills. When he smiled at me, it was like a giant bear hug telling me that it was alright. Even though I will miss him and Meg terribly when they move, I know that they are so happy and love each other so much and that they can make it work.
              I am so blessed to have a family like mine. They show me what love is. While embarrassing at times, when trying to set me up with boys, I know they mean the best. Weddings seem to always make you take a step back and look on your life and look at the people that you love. Some people have regrets, some don't. I don't have regrets. I was blessed to have been put into a family that is extremely close. We have arguments of course, but we always forgive and we always remember how much we love each other. I think that is part of the reason that I am so choosy with the boys in my life. I have a family that loved my brother's wife from the very beginning. That is just how they are. Wow, weird to say brother's wife. I have no doubts that whomever I marry one day will be loved by my family without a doubt.
            I love parties, celebrations, get-togethers whatever you want to call them. I love the sound of laughter, music, stories being told, toasts being made. I LOVE to dance and sing and play. I love to be myself and laugh and goof around without having a care in the world. That's how it was on Friday night. I love the men in my life and I am so happy that we could dance and laugh and carry on because we had a chance to forget about our lives, our worries, our futures, and school for a short while. Needless to say, I am blessed. I am blessed with a family like mine, and friends like mine.
            Turning a new page in our lives is always hard I feel like. It is hard to change and accept new situations and new places. But we learn to adapt. I have friends all over, at different schools, in different states, in different houses/dorms, but I always try to catch up on their lives. What do we have to look forward to in life, if we don't have friends to share it with? Wherever my friends and family may be, I always take time to think about them, pray for them, listen to them and catch up with them. So here's my advice for you, when turning the page in your life, embrace it. Know that it is something you have to do and know that something good will come out of it even if you have to push hard to make it through. Good luck to the stressed college students, to the ones going through physical training, to those being tested on subjects that determine their careers, to those looking for new jobs and new houses, to those moving to new places, to those becoming empty-nesters officially, to those filling out job applications, to those just trying to make it to the next day. Embrace the next page, the next chapter. And never forget to remember the ones that love you and keep you going.

Peace,
B.

“Love is not an affectionate feeling, but a steady wish for the loved person's ultimate good as far as it can be obtained.”
― C.S. Lewis

The things I've come across...

I've come across many things in my short 20 years. I have loved, learned, grew, became, helped, cherished, fought, craved, marveled, destroyed, created, left, returned, laughed, cried, yelled, hated, and so much more. Through all of that I have picked up on things that make me happy, have helped me do better, have made me laugh more, that created relationships. I'm going to share of few of those with you.

1. ALWAYS go to bed at a decent hour, and take naps.
2. Open your heart to be loved but don't go chasing it.
3. Be REAL with people.
4. Always be honest, even when it's the hardest thing you've ever done.
5. Never forget. Write journals, take pictures, make movies.
6. Know that the lowest points in life are meant to build you back up as a better person.
7. Create masterpieces. Whether you are an amazing artist or playing with play-doh with your 4-year old niece.
8. Stand up for what is right. Don't follow the crowd, you have to believe in yourself and know that everyone deserves to be treated with respect.
9. Volunteer. There is just something about putting a smile on another's face.
10. Memorize little pieces of people. I love my friend's laughter, I like that my Grandpa brings me peppermints every Sunday at church, I love that my friend always seems to know what I'm thinking just by looking at me, I love that I remind people of my brother because he's my hero, I love when my mom plays with my hair, I love when I am squeezed in a hug by my niece and nephew.
11. Build bridges don't tear them down. If you are angry or upset, forgive. If you are hurt or sad, apologize even if you do not think it was your fault.
12. Don't live too far into the future. Pray for what's next and hope for the best but live each day to the fullest.
13. Commit. Commit to your job, commit to your classes, commit to your partners, friends, family.
14. Never take the easy way out. You will not feel satisfied. The road that takes you on a bumpy journey will be the one that you look back on and remember, "Hey, I did that."
15. Pray. About everything. Whether you believe in God or not, the majority of people pray. Maybe you don't call it praying but "hoping" and "thinking" about things can be considered the same. You can pray about anything. Talk aloud, whisper to yourself, think things through in your head, all of it I considered to be praying,. Because you need something more than just yourself to ponder the things you pray about. You hope that somebody else can help you or heal you or fix you. You hope that everything will be okay.

These are only a few lessons that I have learned. Some may seem cheesy (like "shredding cheese" as one of my housemates would say) but do not take them for granted. I think everyone at some point looks for advice and I hope maybe some of you find what you are looking for.

Grace & Peace,
B.

It's the "little things" in life...right?

Over the past few weeks I have come to realize that life is catching up with me. In a typical summer I probably go to the beach or the lake at LEAST once a week. This summer I have not been to the lake yet and I have been to the beach twice. My summer has been taken over by work and school. Depressing? Yeah, you have no idea. It makes me realize though that my life is no longer lazy summer days. It makes me realize that I am really starting to grow up. The funny thing is, is that I feel so far from my future. I feel like I have so much more schooling and so much more stuff to do before I enter the real world. A friend of mine just recently applied for a program where they might be working in their actual career by next year! It makes me think holy cow maybe I am closer to my career than I think. Because of the craziness and how hectic this summer has been so far I need to remember to cherish the "little things". While the ones I love seem to be all over the map this summer I have had to remind myself not to forget about them. One of my best friends from school works at a summer camp and I make it my mission to send her letters and cd's throughout the summer. I also am away from my only brother for the first summer ever. I have been able to Skype with him and talk on the phone with him but it is my goal to send him packages that make him feel loved from Michigan. I have enjoyed the time I have spent with my friends already but the summer class I have been taking since May is over tomorrow, so I plan on taking the next two months to work and then spend all of my extra time being with my friends and family. It's been a tough year on my family. I never thought that we could ever go through this much sickness in one year. As a family we have had to deal with a lot. We have had to become okay with the realization of cancer, we have had to become okay with losing hair, chemo treatments, surgeries, etc. Before this year I took for granted the things that I held dear. Now, I have come to realize that the "little things" are the things I cherish the most. Skyping with my brother who is hundreds of miles away, sending letters to best friends, having dinner with my grandparents and sharing my day with them, having coffee with my cousin, laying out by the pool with my best friend, sharing my birthday on the beach with one of my favorite people, sitting outside with my parents while playing catch with my dog and sometimes all I need to have a good night is sitting in a friend's kitchen just talking and laughing. This summer has been a summer of realization for me. With all of the hard stuff going on within my family, it's important for me to realize that the good stuff is what I need to cherish and what I need to hold onto. Hold onto the "little things", they make life worth it.

Love,
B.

What if blessings come through raindrops? What if healing comes through tears? and what if the trials of this life, the rain, the storms, the hardest nights, are mercies in disguise? ~Laura Story

The End is Near... or perhaps the Beginning?

I'm currently sitting in a barstool behind the counter of our coffee shop here on campus where I work during the week. I'm sitting here checking emails, Facebook, catching up on other blogs, and trying to study. As I sit here I can't help but think HOLY COW I am almost halfway done through college! Has it really been two years since coming to this amazing place that I call home?! This past Sunday I realized just how truly blessed I am to attend Hope. I have had late night adventures that I lost precious sleep over but I do not regret. I have met so many people that have become truly great friends. I've had bad days but the good ones are the only ones that stand out. I love playing out in the Pine Grove, riding our bikes to the beach with Shelby's brake on the entire way, playing pranks on everyone, late nights studying in the library sharing lots of laughter, picking up coffee when life gets hard for all of us, meeting at Lemonjello's when we all get back from Christmas Break to catch up on each other's lives, struggling to figure out what we are doing with our lives, and best of all spending time together just simply laughing and running around. I can't help but think that in two very short years I will miss these people and this place so incredibly much. I am so grateful for all the people I have gotten to know these past two years and can't wait to meet more the next two. Two things have kept me anchored and sane the past two years: the friends I have here and the friends and family I have at home. No doubt these past few months have been the hardest for me but I have survived because of all of them. I was talking with a girl this morning who is graduating on Sunday. She told me that it has hit her that she is leaving and she was so excited for the future but saddened to be leaving Holland, Michigan. I thought to myself what am I gonna say when I get asked that question four days before I graduate? Will I be sad? Will I be excited? Will I be scared? I would have to say that as of this moment, I would be so incredibly grateful for the things that I have learned here and for the people I've met and though I will miss them terribly those I have grown the closest with will stay with me and I will be so excited to move on to a new chapter in life. And I will always remember that the best decision of my life was to attend Hope College. College is meant to be a stepping stone, you live through it and you take the memories from it with you but you move on with your life. I will always be blessed to call Hope College home. Thanks for making it great, Hope College. Happy Summer, friends! Soak up the sunshine and relax! We made it through another year!

Lots of Love to you all,
B.

p.s. A poem about the journey...

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;	5
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,	10
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.	15
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. ~Robert Frost, The Road Not Taken